If You’re Not Paranoid, You’re Crazy
As government agencies and tech
companies develop more and more intrusive means of watching and influencing
people, how can we live free lives?
Phil Toledano
Phil
Toledano
by Walter Kirn
I
knew we’d bought walnuts at the store that week, and I wanted to add
some to my oatmeal. I called to my wife and asked her where she’d put them. She
was washing her face in the bathroom, running the faucet, and must not have
heard me—she didn’t answer. I found the bag of nuts without her help and
stirred a handful into my bowl. My phone was charging on the counter. Bored, I
picked it up to check the app that wirelessly grabs data from the fitness band
I’d started wearing a month earlier. I saw that I’d slept for almost eight
hours the night before but had gotten a mere two hours of “deep sleep.” I saw
that I’d reached exactly 30 percent of my day’s goal of 13,000 steps. And then
I noticed a message in a small window reserved for miscellaneous health tips.
“Walnuts,” it read. It told me to eat more walnuts.
It was
probably a coincidence, a fluke. Still, it caused me to glance down at my
wristband and then at my phone, a brand-new model with many unknown, untested
capabilities. Had my phone picked up my words through its mic and somehow
relayed them to my wristband, which then signaled the app?
The devices
spoke to each other behind my back—I’d known they would when I “paired”
them—but suddenly I was wary of their relationship. Who else did they talk to,
and about what? And what happened to their conversations? Were they temporarily
archived, promptly scrubbed, or forever incorporated into the “cloud,” that
ghostly entity with the too-disarming name?
“I
think it’s scanning us,” Dalton said, and something told me he was right.
It was the
winter of 2013, and these “walnut moments” had been multiplying—jarring little
nudges from beyond that occurred whenever I went online. One night the previous
summer, I’d driven to meet a friend at an art gallery in Hollywood, my first
visit to a gallery in years. The next morning, in my inbox, several spam
e-mails urged me to invest in art. That was an easy one to figure out: I’d
typed the name of the gallery into Google Maps. Another simple one to trace was
the stream of invitations to drug and alcohol rehab centers that I’d been
getting ever since I’d consulted an online calendar of Los Angeles–area
Alcoholics Anonymous meetings. Since membership in AA is supposed to be
confidential, these e‑mails irked me. Their presumptuous, heart-to-heart tone
bugged me too. Was I tired of my misery and hopelessness? Hadn’t I caused my
loved ones enough pain?
Some of
these disconcerting prompts were harder to explain. For example, the appearance
on my Facebook page, under the heading “People You May Know,” of a California
musician whom I’d bumped into six or seven times at AA meetings in a private
home. In accordance with AA custom, he had never told me his last name nor
inquired about mine. And as far as I knew, we had just one friend in common, a
notably solitary older novelist who avoided computers altogether. I did some
research in an online technology forum and learned that by entering my number
into his smartphone’s address book (compiling phone lists to use in times of
trouble is an AA ritual), the musician had probably triggered the program that
placed his full name and photo on my page.
Then there
was this peculiar psychic incursion. One night, about a year before my phone
suggested I eat more walnuts, I was researching modern spycraft for a book I
was thinking about writing when I happened across a creepy YouTube video. It
consisted of surveillance footage from a Middle Eastern hotel where agents
thought to be acting on behalf of Israel had allegedly assassinated a senior
Hamas official. I watched as the agents stalked their target, whom they
apparently murdered in his room, offscreen, before reappearing in a hallway and
nonchalantly summoning an elevator. Because one of the agents was a woman, I
typed these words into my browser’s search bar: Mossad seduction techniques.
Minutes later, a banner ad appeared for Ashley Madison, the dating site for
adulterous married people that would eventually be hacked, exposing tens of
millions of trusting cheaters who’d emptied their ids onto the Web. When I
tried to watch the surveillance footage again, a video ad appeared. It promoted
a slick divorce attorney based in Santa Monica, just a few miles from the
Malibu apartment where I escaped my cold Montana home during the winter months.
Adultery,
divorce. I saw a pattern here, one that I found especially unwelcome because at
the time I was recently engaged. Evidently, some callous algorithm was betting
against my pending marriage and offering me an early exit. Had merely typing seduction
into a search engine marked me as a rascal? Or was the formula more
sophisticated? Could it be that my online choices in recent weeks—the travel
guide to Berlin that I’d perused, the Porsche convertible I’d priced, the old
girlfriend to whom I’d sent a virtual birthday card—indicated longings and
frustrations that I was too deep in denial to acknowledge? When I later read
that Facebook, through clever computerized detective work, could tell when two
of its users were falling in love, I wondered whether Google might have similar
powers. It struck me that the search engine might know more about my
unconscious than I do—a possibility that would put it in a position not only to
predict my behavior, but to manipulate it. Lose your privacy, lose your free
will—a chilling thought.
Around the
same time, I looked into changing my car-insurance policy. I learned that
Progressive offered discounts to some drivers who agreed to fit their cars with
a tracking device called Snapshot. That people ever took this deal astonished
me. Time alone in my car, unobserved and unmolested, was sacred to me, an act
of self-communion, and spoiling it for money felt heretical. I shared this
opinion with a friend. “I don’t quite see the problem,” he replied. “Is there
something you do in your car that you’re not proud of? Frankly, you sound a
little paranoid.”
My friend
was right on both counts. Yes, I did things in my car I wasn’t proud of (wasn’t
that my birthright as an American?), and yes, I’d become a little paranoid.
I would have
to be crazy not to be.
The night i saw my first black
helicopter—or heard it, because black helicopters are invisible at night—I was
already growing certain that we, the sensible majority, owe plenty of so-called
crackpots a few apologies. We dismissed them, shrugging off as delusions or
urban legends various warnings and anecdotes that now stand revealed, in all
too many instances, as either solid inside tips or spooky marvels of intuition.
The Mormon
elder who told me when I was a teenager back in 1975 that people soon would
have to carry “chips” around or “be banished from the marketplace.”
The ex–Army
ranger in the 1980s who said an “eye in the sky” could read my license plate.
The
girlfriend in 1993 who forbade me to rent a dirty video on the grounds that
“they keep lists of everything.”
The
Hollywood actor in 2011 who declined to join me on his sundeck because he’d put
on weight and a security expert had advised him that the paparazzi were flying
drones.
The tattooed
grad student who, about a year before Edward Snowden gave the world the lowdown
on code-named snooping programs such as PRISM and
XKeyscore, told me about a childhood friend of his who worked in military
intelligence and refused to go to wild parties unless the guests agreed to
leave their phones locked outside in a car trunk or a cooler, preferably with
the battery removed, and who also confessed to snooping on a girlfriend through
the camera in her laptop.
The night I
vowed never again to mock such people, in January 2014, I was standing
knee-deep in a field of crusty snow at the edge of a National Guard base near
Saratoga Springs, Utah, a fresh-from-the-factory all-American settlement,
densely flagpoled and lavishly front-porched, just south of Salt Lake City.
Above its rooftops the moon was a pale sliver, and filling the sky were the
sort of ragged clouds in which one might discern the face of Jesus. I had on a
dark jacket, a dark wool cap, and a black nylon mask to keep my cheeks from
freezing.
The
key would be surviving those first days after the ATMs stopped working and the
grocery stores were looted bare.
I’d gone
there for purposes of counterespionage. I wanted to behold up close, in person,
one of the citadels of modern surveillance: the National Security Agency’s
recently constructed Utah Data Center. I wasn’t sure what I was after,
exactly—perhaps just a concrete impression of a process that seemed elusive and
phantasmagoric, even after Snowden disclosed its workings. The records that the
NSA blandly rendered as mere “data” and invisibly, silently collected—the phone
logs, e‑mails, browsing histories, and digital photo libraries generated by a
population engaged in the treasonous business of daily life—required a
tangible, physical depository. And this was it: a multibillion-dollar facility
clearly designed to unscramble, analyze, and store imponderable masses of
information whose ultimate uses were unknowable. Google’s data mines,
presumably, exist merely to sell us products, but the government’s models of
our inner selves might be deployed to sell us stranger items. Policies.
Programs. Maybe even wars.
Such
concerns didn’t strike me as farfetched, but I was reluctant to air them in
mixed company. I knew that many of my fellow citizens took comfort in their own
banality: You live a boring life and feel you have nothing to fear from those
on high. But how could you anticipate the ways in which insights bred of spying
might prove handy to some future regime? New tools have a way of breeding new
abuses. Detailed logs of behaviors that I found tame—my Amazon purchases, my
online comments, and even my meanderings through the physical world, collected
by biometric scanners, say, or license-plate readers on police cars—might
someday be read in a hundred different ways by powers whose purposes I couldn’t
fathom now. They say you can quote the Bible to support almost any conceivable
proposition, and I could only imagine the range of charges that selective looks
at my data might render plausible.
The National Security Agency’s
Utah Data Center, south of Salt Lake City. Keeping the center’s servers from
overheating could require almost 2 million gallons of water a day. (Rick
Bowmer/AP)
Everything
about the data center was classified, but reports had leaked out that hinted at
the magnitude of its operations. Aerial photos on the Web showed a complex of
slablike concrete buildings arrayed in a crescent on a broad, bare hillside.
The center was said to require enough power to supply a city of tens of thousands
of people. The cooling plants designed to keep its servers from overheating and
melting down would consume fantastic quantities of water—almost 2 million
gallons a day when fully operational, I’d read—pumped from a nearby reservoir.
What couldn’t be conveyed by such statistics was the potency of the center’s
digital nucleus. How much information could it hold, organize, screen, and, if
called upon, decrypt? According to experts such as William Binney, a government
whistle-blower and former top NSA cryptologist, the answer was simple: almost
everything, today, tomorrow, and for decades to come. The data center,
understood poetically (and how better to understand an object both
unprecedented and impenetrable?), was as close as humanity had come to putting infinity
in a box.
With me was
a friend named Dalton Brink, a former Navy nuclear technician. We’d driven down
from Montana the night before, tuned in to one of those wee-hours AM talk shows
whose hosts tend to suffer from a wretched smoker’s cough and whose
conspiracy-minded guests channel a collective unconscious understandably
disturbed by current events. Their hushed revelations are batty but compelling,
charged with weird folkloric energies: Our nation’s leaders have reptile DNA
and belong to abominable sex cults. Microwave stations above the Arctic Circle
whose beams cause cluster headaches and amnesia are crippling America’s
truth-seeking subversives. To those who understand that fiction warps the truth
in order to tell the truth, the literal meanings of such tales are beside the
point. Nightmares are a form of news.
The manic broadcast caused us to reflect that in the days before our trip, we’d e-mailed promiscuously about our plans, using all sorts of keywords that might draw the interest of national-security spybots. And supposing that we had raised red flags, it was technologically conceivable that our movements were being monitored through the GPS chips in our phones. Word had by then leaked out about so-called stingray devices (fake cellphone towers, some of them mounted on prowling aircraft) that secretly swept up information from any mobile phone within their range. We knew that had we been deemed especially interesting, our phones might have been remotely activated to serve as listening devices—a capability first reported on way back in 2006, when the FBI employed the tactic in a Mafia investigation.
These wild speculations seemed less wild the next morning, when we woke to discover that our car had a flat tire. The cause was a long, sharp screw with a washer fitted around its base so that it would have stood straight up when placed behind a tire. Since the tire had been fine during the drive, the puncture must have occurred in Salt Lake City, where we’d stayed the night. A mischievous prank, no doubt. And yet there was doubt—not a whole lot of it, but some. PRISM. XKeyscore. Stingrays. They sow doubt, and not only in self-styled gonzo journalists out on a lark. One might be forgiven for thinking that sowing doubt is one of their main functions.
We set out for the data center on a spare tire, stopping along the way to fix the old one at a Firestone store. Its employees dealt with us in an upbeat, tightly scripted manner that appeared to stem from their awareness of several cameras angled toward the service counter. The situation reminded me that the ferreting-out of secrets is merely one purpose of surveillance; it also disciplines, inhibits, robbing interactions of spontaneity and turning them into self-conscious performances. The Firestone employees, with their smiles and good manners, had the same forced cheerfulness I’d long ago noticed in my Facebook feed, a parallel universe of marriage announcements and birthday well-wishes straight out of the Midwestern 1950s. Both were miniature versions, it occurred to me, of the society we’d all soon inhabit—or already did but had yet to fully acknowledge.
It was dark when we finally reached Saratoga Springs and looked for an inconspicuous parking spot from which to launch our raid. We ended up in a hivelike subdivision whose immaculate streets and culs-de-sac were named after fruits (Muskmelon Way) and religious concepts (Providence Drive). Above the beige houses rose the spires of identical brand-new Mormon churches, packed in so closely that we could see six of them from our parking spot. Many of the houses looked unoccupied, as though built for an army of workers that hadn’t yet arrived. In one of the driveways was a car whose license plate ended in NSA.
The manic broadcast caused us to reflect that in the days before our trip, we’d e-mailed promiscuously about our plans, using all sorts of keywords that might draw the interest of national-security spybots. And supposing that we had raised red flags, it was technologically conceivable that our movements were being monitored through the GPS chips in our phones. Word had by then leaked out about so-called stingray devices (fake cellphone towers, some of them mounted on prowling aircraft) that secretly swept up information from any mobile phone within their range. We knew that had we been deemed especially interesting, our phones might have been remotely activated to serve as listening devices—a capability first reported on way back in 2006, when the FBI employed the tactic in a Mafia investigation.
These wild speculations seemed less wild the next morning, when we woke to discover that our car had a flat tire. The cause was a long, sharp screw with a washer fitted around its base so that it would have stood straight up when placed behind a tire. Since the tire had been fine during the drive, the puncture must have occurred in Salt Lake City, where we’d stayed the night. A mischievous prank, no doubt. And yet there was doubt—not a whole lot of it, but some. PRISM. XKeyscore. Stingrays. They sow doubt, and not only in self-styled gonzo journalists out on a lark. One might be forgiven for thinking that sowing doubt is one of their main functions.
We set out for the data center on a spare tire, stopping along the way to fix the old one at a Firestone store. Its employees dealt with us in an upbeat, tightly scripted manner that appeared to stem from their awareness of several cameras angled toward the service counter. The situation reminded me that the ferreting-out of secrets is merely one purpose of surveillance; it also disciplines, inhibits, robbing interactions of spontaneity and turning them into self-conscious performances. The Firestone employees, with their smiles and good manners, had the same forced cheerfulness I’d long ago noticed in my Facebook feed, a parallel universe of marriage announcements and birthday well-wishes straight out of the Midwestern 1950s. Both were miniature versions, it occurred to me, of the society we’d all soon inhabit—or already did but had yet to fully acknowledge.
It was dark when we finally reached Saratoga Springs and looked for an inconspicuous parking spot from which to launch our raid. We ended up in a hivelike subdivision whose immaculate streets and culs-de-sac were named after fruits (Muskmelon Way) and religious concepts (Providence Drive). Above the beige houses rose the spires of identical brand-new Mormon churches, packed in so closely that we could see six of them from our parking spot. Many of the houses looked unoccupied, as though built for an army of workers that hadn’t yet arrived. In one of the driveways was a car whose license plate ended in NSA.
We had
parked where Providence Drive ran out, at the edge of a field, across which we
could see the data center’s curving access road. It ran uphill to the
facility’s entrance: a pillared gate of Platonic, spectral beauty that seemed
less like a military checkpoint than a dimension-spanning star bridge. Behind
it, cool green lights marked the perimeter. We started walking. A few minutes
later we heard a thwop thwop sound. We turned in its direction, toward a
ridgeline, and as we did the sound changed character, deepening and thrumming
in our chests. The craft had a palpable, heavy-bellied presence but no
detectable outline, no silhouette; the only visible sign of its approach was a
tiny blinking red light. It seemed to slow down and then hover overhead.
“I think it’s scanning us,” Dalton said, and something told me he was right; the modern nervous system, groomed by its experiences in airports, is sensitive to high-tech probing. I gazed straight up at where I thought the invisible vessel was and pictured two green thermal images—our bodies—displayed on a screen inside its cockpit. What other feats could the craft’s instruments perform? Could they extract the contents of the phones buttoned into the pockets of our coats, learn our identities, run background checks, and determine the level of threat we posed? Anything seemed possible. The systems protecting this new holy of holies were surely among the most advanced available.
We stood there in our boots, our heads tipped back, absorbing the interest of the floating colossus. The experience was strangely bracing. In the age of Big Data and Big Surveillance, the overlords rarely sally forth to meet you. Then it was over. The formless thing flew off, leaving us with the sense that we’d been toyed with. We were nothing to it, two pranksters in the snow.
Twenty more minutes of trudging through knee-high drifts brought us closer to the center than I’d thought would be permitted. We weren’t sure whether the place was functioning yet—I’d read about fires erupting inside the buildings that housed the servers. Perhaps the reports were true; the place seemed deserted. Moon-of-Jupiter deserted, as in incapable of sustaining life. Gazing at it from 50 yards outside its fence, I felt absolutely nothing coming back: no hum, no pulse, no buzz, no aura, no emission or emanation of any kind. It had substance but no presence, as though all of its is-ness was directed inward.
It awed me, the Utah Data Center at night. It awed me in an unfamiliar way—not with its size, which was hard to get a fix on, but with its overwhelming separateness. To think that virtually every human act, every utterance, transaction, and conversation that occurred out here—here in the world that seemed so vast and bustling, so magnificently complex—could one day be coded, compressed, and stuck in there, in a cluster of buildings no larger than a couple of shopping malls. Loss of privacy seemed like a tiny issue, suddenly, compared with the greater loss the place presaged: loss of existential stature.
“I think it’s scanning us,” Dalton said, and something told me he was right; the modern nervous system, groomed by its experiences in airports, is sensitive to high-tech probing. I gazed straight up at where I thought the invisible vessel was and pictured two green thermal images—our bodies—displayed on a screen inside its cockpit. What other feats could the craft’s instruments perform? Could they extract the contents of the phones buttoned into the pockets of our coats, learn our identities, run background checks, and determine the level of threat we posed? Anything seemed possible. The systems protecting this new holy of holies were surely among the most advanced available.
We stood there in our boots, our heads tipped back, absorbing the interest of the floating colossus. The experience was strangely bracing. In the age of Big Data and Big Surveillance, the overlords rarely sally forth to meet you. Then it was over. The formless thing flew off, leaving us with the sense that we’d been toyed with. We were nothing to it, two pranksters in the snow.
Twenty more minutes of trudging through knee-high drifts brought us closer to the center than I’d thought would be permitted. We weren’t sure whether the place was functioning yet—I’d read about fires erupting inside the buildings that housed the servers. Perhaps the reports were true; the place seemed deserted. Moon-of-Jupiter deserted, as in incapable of sustaining life. Gazing at it from 50 yards outside its fence, I felt absolutely nothing coming back: no hum, no pulse, no buzz, no aura, no emission or emanation of any kind. It had substance but no presence, as though all of its is-ness was directed inward.
It awed me, the Utah Data Center at night. It awed me in an unfamiliar way—not with its size, which was hard to get a fix on, but with its overwhelming separateness. To think that virtually every human act, every utterance, transaction, and conversation that occurred out here—here in the world that seemed so vast and bustling, so magnificently complex—could one day be coded, compressed, and stuck in there, in a cluster of buildings no larger than a couple of shopping malls. Loss of privacy seemed like a tiny issue, suddenly, compared with the greater loss the place presaged: loss of existential stature.
About 20 miles north of Saratoga Springs,
across the Wasatch Valley from the NSA’s fortress of secrets, is a convention
center in Sandy, Utah, that regularly hosts a gathering of some of America’s
most suspicious minds: the Rocky Mountain Gun Show. Dalton and I visited it the
next day, still frazzled by our encounter with the data center and convinced
that such a monstrous creation must cast a spiritual shadow of some kind. We
wanted to see what that, too, looked like up close.
Flanking the
entrance to the gun show were two enormous army-style trucks painted in
camouflage whose tires were the size of children’s wading pools. Their cabs
were too high to access without steps. Both were for sale, which seemed to mean
there existed buyers for such behemoths, people who could imagine needing them.
To do what, however, in what exigencies? To transport food across demolished
cities? To blockade an airport? To storm the data center?
Having lived in Montana for almost 25 years, I knew my share of apocalyptic oddballs. They entertained some strange scenarios and counted among their numbers every sort of zealot, kook, and hater. But perhaps they were also canaries in the coal mine, preternaturally sensitive to bad vibrations that calmer folks were just starting to feel. I was coming to think of paranoia as a form of folk art, the poetic eruption of murky inklings, which made the gun show a kind of gallery. The buying and selling of firearms and their accessories was only part of what went on there; the place was also a forum for dark visions and primitive fears, where like-minded people, provoked by developments beyond their ken, shared their apprehensions. A decade ago, at a similar event in Livingston, Montana, a fellow had told me that my TV was capable of watching me back. I didn’t take him seriously—not until this year, when I read that the voice-recognition capabilities built into certain Samsung sets could capture and then forward to third parties the conversations held nearby.
Inside the show, a clean-cut salesman stood beside a woman who gazed at him with an expression that bordered on idolatry. He showed us a line of shotgun ammunition designed to shred a human target with scores of tiny, multisided blades. Another shell contained a bunched-up wire precisely weighted at both ends such that it would uncoil and stretch out when fired, sawing its target into pieces. The man also sold “bug out” bags stocked with handsaws, fuel pellets, first-aid kits, and other equipment that might prove helpful should relations between the watchers and the watched catastrophically deteriorate. The key, the man said, would be surviving those first few days after the ATMs stopped working and the grocery stores were looted bare.
The couple didn’t push their goods on us, only their outlook. When they learned we were from Montana, they asked whether we’d seen the FEMA camps where, supposedly, thousands of foreign troops were stationed in anticipation of martial law. The salesman was concerned that these troops would “take our women,” and he recommended a podcast—The Common Sense Show, hosted by someone named Dave Hodges—that would prepare us for the coming siege. The man’s eyes slid sideways as he spoke, as though on alert for lurking secret agents. Later, I learned that his worry was not entirely unfounded. In January of this year, the ACLU unearthed an e‑mail describing a federal plan to scan the license plates of vehicles parked outside gun shows. The plan was never acted on, apparently, but reading about it caused me some chagrin; I’d thought the jumpy salesman had completely flipped his wig.
The gun show was not about weaponry, primarily, but about autonomy—construed in this case as the right to stand one’s ground against an arrogant, intrusive new order whose instruments of suppression and control I’d seen for myself the night before. There seemed to be no rational response to the feelings of powerlessness stirred by the cybernetic panopticon; the choice was either to ignore it or go crazy, at least to some degree. With its coolly planar architecture, the data center projected a stern indifference to the qualms that its presence inevitably raised. It practically dared one to take up arms against it, a Goliath that roused the instinct to grab a slingshot. The assault rifles and grenade launchers (I handled one, I hope for the last time) for sale were props in a drama of imagined resistance in which individuals would rise up to defend themselves. The irony was that preparing for such a fight in the only way these people knew how—by plotting their countermoves and hoarding ammo—played into the very security concerns that the overlords use to justify their snooping. The would-be combatants in this epic conflict were more closely linked, perhaps, than they appreciated.
Having lived in Montana for almost 25 years, I knew my share of apocalyptic oddballs. They entertained some strange scenarios and counted among their numbers every sort of zealot, kook, and hater. But perhaps they were also canaries in the coal mine, preternaturally sensitive to bad vibrations that calmer folks were just starting to feel. I was coming to think of paranoia as a form of folk art, the poetic eruption of murky inklings, which made the gun show a kind of gallery. The buying and selling of firearms and their accessories was only part of what went on there; the place was also a forum for dark visions and primitive fears, where like-minded people, provoked by developments beyond their ken, shared their apprehensions. A decade ago, at a similar event in Livingston, Montana, a fellow had told me that my TV was capable of watching me back. I didn’t take him seriously—not until this year, when I read that the voice-recognition capabilities built into certain Samsung sets could capture and then forward to third parties the conversations held nearby.
Inside the show, a clean-cut salesman stood beside a woman who gazed at him with an expression that bordered on idolatry. He showed us a line of shotgun ammunition designed to shred a human target with scores of tiny, multisided blades. Another shell contained a bunched-up wire precisely weighted at both ends such that it would uncoil and stretch out when fired, sawing its target into pieces. The man also sold “bug out” bags stocked with handsaws, fuel pellets, first-aid kits, and other equipment that might prove helpful should relations between the watchers and the watched catastrophically deteriorate. The key, the man said, would be surviving those first few days after the ATMs stopped working and the grocery stores were looted bare.
The couple didn’t push their goods on us, only their outlook. When they learned we were from Montana, they asked whether we’d seen the FEMA camps where, supposedly, thousands of foreign troops were stationed in anticipation of martial law. The salesman was concerned that these troops would “take our women,” and he recommended a podcast—The Common Sense Show, hosted by someone named Dave Hodges—that would prepare us for the coming siege. The man’s eyes slid sideways as he spoke, as though on alert for lurking secret agents. Later, I learned that his worry was not entirely unfounded. In January of this year, the ACLU unearthed an e‑mail describing a federal plan to scan the license plates of vehicles parked outside gun shows. The plan was never acted on, apparently, but reading about it caused me some chagrin; I’d thought the jumpy salesman had completely flipped his wig.
The gun show was not about weaponry, primarily, but about autonomy—construed in this case as the right to stand one’s ground against an arrogant, intrusive new order whose instruments of suppression and control I’d seen for myself the night before. There seemed to be no rational response to the feelings of powerlessness stirred by the cybernetic panopticon; the choice was either to ignore it or go crazy, at least to some degree. With its coolly planar architecture, the data center projected a stern indifference to the qualms that its presence inevitably raised. It practically dared one to take up arms against it, a Goliath that roused the instinct to grab a slingshot. The assault rifles and grenade launchers (I handled one, I hope for the last time) for sale were props in a drama of imagined resistance in which individuals would rise up to defend themselves. The irony was that preparing for such a fight in the only way these people knew how—by plotting their countermoves and hoarding ammo—played into the very security concerns that the overlords use to justify their snooping. The would-be combatants in this epic conflict were more closely linked, perhaps, than they appreciated.
A voice on
the PA system announced that the show would be closing in 15 minutes, causing
vendors to slash their prices and customers to stuff their bags with camouflage
jumpsuits, solar-powered radios, and every sort of doomsday camping gear. In
the car, headed north on I‑15 toward home, I donned my new bulletproof shooting
glasses while Dalton plugged his phone into the stereo and played an episode of
The Common Sense Show. Its murky, subterranean acoustics suggested that
it had been recorded in a fallout shelter. Dave Hodges’s guest, a certain Dr.
Jim Garrow, purported to be a retired spook who’d spent the past few decades in
“deep cover” and become privy to many “chilling” schemes, including one to
convert pro-sports arenas into cavernous detention centers where noncompliant
freedom lovers would be guillotined en masse. Guillotined? Why bring back those
contraptions? Because their blades killed instantly and cleanly, yielding
high-grade corpses whose body parts could be plundered and reused by ghoulish,
power-mad elites intent on achieving immortality.
The men’s demeanor as they described this nightmare was unhurried and curiously blasé. Neurotics like me who were still learning to cope with being monitored were prone to pangs of disquiet and unease, but for The Common Sense Show types, a strange equanimity was possible. What were merely unsettling times for most of us were, for Hodges and his fans, a prelude to detainment and dismemberment, grimly fascinating to observe, potentially thrilling to oppose, but no cause for prescription sedatives.
The podcast brought on a trance state ideal for long-haul driving. Memories of the monolithic data center faded and dispersed, supplanted by visions of organ-stealing supermen that would reappear in my mind’s eye when I read, many months later, of an ambitious Italian surgeon intent on perfecting “full body” transplants involving grafting human heads onto bodies other than their own.
The men’s demeanor as they described this nightmare was unhurried and curiously blasé. Neurotics like me who were still learning to cope with being monitored were prone to pangs of disquiet and unease, but for The Common Sense Show types, a strange equanimity was possible. What were merely unsettling times for most of us were, for Hodges and his fans, a prelude to detainment and dismemberment, grimly fascinating to observe, potentially thrilling to oppose, but no cause for prescription sedatives.
The podcast brought on a trance state ideal for long-haul driving. Memories of the monolithic data center faded and dispersed, supplanted by visions of organ-stealing supermen that would reappear in my mind’s eye when I read, many months later, of an ambitious Italian surgeon intent on perfecting “full body” transplants involving grafting human heads onto bodies other than their own.
We crossed into southern Idaho at
dusk and made a side trip to Lava Hot Springs, an isolated mountain town
renowned for its therapeutic thermal pools. I wanted to wash the black
helicopter off me. Consorting with the twitchy gun-show folks after skulking
around the data center had weakened my psychological immune system. Paranoia is
an infernal affliction, difficult to arrest once it takes hold, particularly at
a time when every week brings fresh news of governmental and commercial schemes
that light up one’s overactive fear receptors: AT&T and the NSA colluded in
bugging the United Nations; the FBI is flying Cessnas outfitted with video
cameras and cellphone scanners over U.S. cities; Google has the capacity,
through its search algorithm, to swing the next presidential election. Once you
know how very little you know about those who wish to know everything about
you, daily experience starts to lose its innocence and little things begin to
feel like the tentacles of big things.
Sitting
waist-deep in a thermal pool, beneath the stars, I struck up a conversation
with a teenager who’d dropped out of high school the year before and seemed
depressed about his prospects. There was no job he knew how to do that a robot
couldn’t do better, he told me, and he guessed that he had three years, at
most, to earn all the money he would ever make. When I told him about my NSA
excursion, he sighed and shook his head. Surveillance, he said, was pointless,
a total waste. The powers that be should instead invite people to confess their
secrets willingly. He envisioned vast centers equipped with mics and headphones
where people could speak in detail and at length about their experiences,
thoughts, and feelings, delivering in the form of monologues what the
eavesdroppers could gather only piecemeal.
Memories
of the data center faded, supplanted by visions of organ-stealing supermen.
Whether this
notion was brilliant or naive, I couldn’t decide, but it felt revelatory. There
in the pool, immersed in clouds of steam that fostered a sense of mystic
intimacy, I wondered whether a generation that found the concept of privacy
archaic might be undergoing a great mutation, surrendering the interior psychic
realms whose sanctity can no longer be assured. Masking one’s insides behind
one’s outsides—once the essential task of human social life—was becoming a
strenuous, suspect undertaking; why not, like my teenage acquaintance, just
quit the fight? Surveillance and data mining presuppose that there exists in us
a hidden self that can be reached through probing and analyses that are best
practiced on the unaware, but what if we wore our whole beings on our sleeves?
Perhaps the rush toward self-disclosure precipitated by social media was a
preemptive defense against intruders: What’s freely given can’t be stolen.
Interiority on Planet X‑Ray is a burden that’s best shrugged off, not borne. My
teenage friend was onto something. Become a bright, flat surface. Cast no
shadow.
But I am too old for this embrace of nakedness. I still believe in the boundaries of my own skull and feel uneasy when they are crossed. Not long ago, my wife left town on business and I texted her to say good night. “Sleep tight and don’t let the bedbugs bite,” I wrote. I was unsettled the next morning when I found, atop my list of e‑mails, a note from an exterminator offering to purge my house of bedbugs. If someone had told me even a few years ago that such a thing wasn’t pure coincidence, I would have had my doubts about that someone. Now, however, I reserve my doubts for the people who still trust. There are so many ghosts in our machines—their locations so hidden, their methods so ingenious, their motives so inscrutable—that not to feel haunted is not to be awake. That’s why paranoia, even in its extreme forms, no longer seems to me so much a disorder as a mode of cognition with an impressive track record of prescience.
Paranoia, we scorned you, and we’re sorry. We feared you were crazy, but now we’re crazy too, meaning we’re ready to listen, so, please, let’s talk. It’s time. It’s past time. Let’s get to know each other. Quietly, with the shades drawn, in the dark, in the space that is left to us, so small, now nearly gone.
But I am too old for this embrace of nakedness. I still believe in the boundaries of my own skull and feel uneasy when they are crossed. Not long ago, my wife left town on business and I texted her to say good night. “Sleep tight and don’t let the bedbugs bite,” I wrote. I was unsettled the next morning when I found, atop my list of e‑mails, a note from an exterminator offering to purge my house of bedbugs. If someone had told me even a few years ago that such a thing wasn’t pure coincidence, I would have had my doubts about that someone. Now, however, I reserve my doubts for the people who still trust. There are so many ghosts in our machines—their locations so hidden, their methods so ingenious, their motives so inscrutable—that not to feel haunted is not to be awake. That’s why paranoia, even in its extreme forms, no longer seems to me so much a disorder as a mode of cognition with an impressive track record of prescience.
Paranoia, we scorned you, and we’re sorry. We feared you were crazy, but now we’re crazy too, meaning we’re ready to listen, so, please, let’s talk. It’s time. It’s past time. Let’s get to know each other. Quietly, with the shades drawn, in the dark, in the space that is left to us, so small, now nearly gone.
From The Atlantic
@ http://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2015/11/if-youre-not-paranoid-youre-crazy/407833/
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Do you want to know what's truly great about high tech? We're now spying on the spies! Yes, we know what their up to, and we're exposing them and their pathologies. That's what is wonderful about being alive today, we're pinpointing and exposing the assholes in charge of an insane operating system and we're now giving people options.... Keep on spying on us and watch as what comes around goes around and what goes around will most smack all the spooky freaks out of their nests of deception games! Keep it coming, so called spies! LOL there simply are no secrets anymore, we're well aware of the games that you play!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written, almost a short-story. poetic. And the image of the man covered in tin-foil gave me a tremendous laugh.
ReplyDeleteYes, those who mock us, put us down for being "conspiracy theorists" are not laughing so loud anymore.
Get rid of your "cell" phone. There was a time when humans lived effectively without them.If you ever need one, no doubt you will be surrounded by those who have one in their possession.
And what will serve the forever thirsty NSA center in Utah, if the western drought continues? Will the gov, forego allotting water for life, so that life can be monitored?
It's not paranoia if the object of your fear is real.
Drop the word "theorists" and simply say it as it is, free your mind. Conspiracy FACTS are played out everyday!
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